I'm sure by now you all know who Ese Walter is.
(Refresh your memory here and here). She took to her blog yesterday to write about the aftereffect of her last post, where she accused pastor Biodun
Fatoyinbo of Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly of
sexual manipulation. Read below... "The past week has ‘killed’ me. It
has stripped me of whatever ‘self-
importance’ I nursed in the corners of my
mind. It has broken me and opened me up to
my real self. It has brought me to a deeper
level of self-awareness, one I am most grateful for. When I sat with my MacBook to type my last
blog, I never imagined it would generate the
kind of attention it did and continues to. I
have one last thing to say on this issue before
I lay it to rest and move on. (I also hope
others can move on too, we have too much going on in this Country to continue to
peddle one for longer than necessary.) A very big thank you to everyone that has felt it
necessary to talk about this issue and spread it
throughout Nigeria and the foreign scene. I read
every email sent to me with awe that people
would take the time out to reach a total stranger
like me. Some were cursing, calling me a witch from the pit of hell sent to destroy the church as
though one individual/church is bigger than the
body of Christ. As though God is mere man and
would cringe in heaven saying, “Ese don did it this
time.” Or as if the good Book didn’t state clearly
that ALL things work out for good for those that love God. Do you love God? If yes, trust that it will ALL turn
around for good. Some people say, ‘I support you, you are brave
and courageous’ and I wonder if those terms
really define me. I do not think I am brave or
courageous. I do know, however that
after decades of sleepwalking through life, I am
now becoming aware not just of myself but also of my environment, my world, and the universe. Some say, put out the evidence and we will believe
you. Hmmm, the morning I sat to write that post, I
really didn’t expect anyone to believe me. Well,
apart from those involved. And my motive
was simple, let one more woman be spared. Let
one more minister of the gospel be mindful and let the church rise up to its responsibilities as God’s
legal representatives here in the earth realm. A copy of the ‘evidence’ is with a respected
minister of the gospel should the christian body
decide to deal with this issue now and that
becomes needful. I am not looking to have a ‘me
against them’ case where I need to prove I’m right
and someone is wrong. I am far from right, but I have used the only means available to me to free
myself of the bondage I put myself in. Lastly, to all the media people seeking interviews
and whatever else mailing me, I have nothing
more to say on this issue. I cannot reply every
email as reading them is beginning to seem like a
new job.
I remember asking a friend once while reading the book of Acts, “Why do we no longer operate in
the power the disciples did in Jesus day?” What
has changed? How do we ‘unchange’ it? God is not mocked, if we serve Him, let’s serve Him.
We cannot continue to grow as a Nation by
oppressing, delaying justice, hating, having the ME
ME ME mentality. As Martin Luther King Jr said, ‘no
one is free until we are all free.’ Things have got to change and it begins with us. It
begins with each and every one of us borrowing
courage to stand for what we believe in. Fela
Durotoye once said, ‘that thing that annoys you
most in society is a sign that you carry its
solution.’ (I’m paraphrasing) Nothing has called out to me more than people,
especially women, suffering in some way and
hiding the pain. Whatever we cover doesn’t go
away. It grows and it finds different outlets to rear
its ugly head until we deal with it. I am not perfect, I will never be, but I am enough
to try what I feel might work. I don’t know
what the entire bible says but I am learning and
applying the little I find out
daily. And I think everyone owes it to himself or
herself to figure it out for themselves. At the end of the day, we agree that ‘men of God’
are firstly men, right? This means it’s needless
expecting them to help you in your growth
with God. I fell into that trap of thinking a ‘man of
God’ is equated to God and it is not new to find
people fall in that hole. How do you begin to learn to serve a God you
have never seen? It takes another level of faith to
do that but we live in a generation/Country where
people don’t want to study for themselves.
They don’t want to read the Scriptures. Well, they
don’t want to read, period. They want to pursue things instead and have somebody do the praying
and studying for them. If you fall in that category,
you need to repent. I learnt that when the veil was torn, we all were
given equal access to the Father. No matter how
long you may have been in church, if you don’t
know what that means you better ask
somebody. And seek a real relationship with the
God you claim to serve. That is what I am spending most of my time doing
these days. Praying, studying, seeking, knocking.
The peace I have felt despite all the hate mails and
tantrums shows that God is not angry with me and
I did what I needed to do to the best of my
understanding. My apologies to everyone this has affected in one
way or another.
Firstly, my family: I don’t know how you guys aren’t sick of me yet Secondly, ‘the body of Christ,’ my intention
was never to cause trouble but to stop a rot I felt
might spread and become worse if nobody spoke
up about it. Lastly, to those who said I shouldn’t blog again, I
respect and understand your concerns but the
truth is, writing is not just my gift, it is also my
‘curse’. I cannot ‘NOT’ write but I PROMISE, this
is the last I will say on this issue except the
christian body needs to see me. God is building His church, and the gates of hell
shall not prevail against it. No sin is too big to
wreck anyone’s faith. If it does, then it means it’s
working out a greater good for you. You will
definitely come out stronger and better in the end.
Like my best friend says “in the end, it will be all right and if it ain’t alright, it’s notthe end.” “…forgetting those things which are behind, and
reaching forth unto those things which are
before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the
high calling of God in Christ Jesus.” Paul. Cheers to the weekend people
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